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Book 3 of the Bitter Memories Series
Made it to the last chapter, but nearing the end, the story took on a life of its own. Although exciting, is was an unexpected turn.
However, I did finish that one last night, and am again trying to write the last chapter...see what happens this time...
Will it get finished? Or, will there be another surprise hidden inside my head?
Stay tuned...Cutter's Revenge is in the works!
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My new book, From The Heart: A Collection of Poems and Stories, is also the first to be available on audio. You can listen to a sample on amazon, and it is awesome!
Book Review of Women Who Kill
Going back to the early 1800’s, R J Parker did his research to bring awareness of the crimes committed by numerous women and a few couples who killed so many innocent men, women and children before finally being brought to justice.
Including the descriptions of the different types of serial killers: the Black Widow, Angels of Mercy, Team Killers, to name a few, many well known killers, and some not so famous, have been investigated in “Women Who Kill.”
R J Parker takes his readers on a trip into the world of these sadistic killers, listing “methods of choice” to kill their victims to reasons why these people (according to doctors) were believed to kill. Not stopping there, Parker exposes the murders they committed, their capture, imprisonment and/or death of each person investigated.
For any person interested in learning the evils of, or behind the mind or work of a serial killer, this is a very informative, well researched chronicle. Highly Recommend.
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Cutter's Revenge
A Serial Killer Stalking…
In the last of the bitter memories trilogy, a man believing he has amnesia walks the streets in Haskell trying to remember who he is; where he came from. In reality, Stan Clark has blackouts where one or more personalities take over Stan’s life, leaving him with no memories of that timeframe.
Numerous men and women are vanishing from small area towns. Henry Frye, Munday’s police chief, is at his wits end after one of his own officers’ turns up missing and a “secret” town meeting is called. Henry fears his days as police chief are numbered. He doesn’t know a serial killer will soon be stalking his own backyard.
Jasmine Goldberg, a dispatcher Henry hires from Abilene is determined to find out all she can about the missing people. She uncovers an old Army report with a picture showing frightening, sadistic eyes of a Stan Clark, later nicknamed “Cutter” by the Army.
A car fitting Clark’s vehicle is spotted on the highway, but seeing the patrol car, he makes a run for it. Officers from area towns join the chase, pursuing the vehicle to a house high on a hill. Once inside, the officers stumble upon a delusional maniac hiding in the basement, and a gruesome sight upstairs.
Before years of lies from the past can destroy him, Henry opens his heart and soul to the two women he loves deeply—Lori, his new mistress, and Sarah, his dead sister’s daughter he adopted—praying Sarah can forgive him as she learns the truth.
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Publication date expected 9/15/12.
The bitter memories series:
* Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival
* Trophy Murders
* Cutter's Revenge
My World - My Life - My Journey
Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival (first in the series) I was only three years old when my life changed, forever.
Plagued by horrendous nightmares since I was a little girl, I used those terrifying times to help me tell my story as I wrote what I believe is the actual truth of what all happened from the time I was two years old until finally found by the FBI and then rescued by my mother, a woman I no longer remembered.
My story is about extreme child abuse, but it doesn't take extreme to push a child over the breaking point where they think about, or even take their own life. Before I found my path toward healing I attempted suicide many times. However, it doesn't have to be this way! I was lucky to have survived at all, as you will learn when you read my story.
I probably could have written this without all the details, but why hide the facts? I set out to tell my story, my way, and while writing this book, many times I felt like I was in a trance. I wrote from the heart, not from my head, and many times I wrote from the heart of the child, exposing how I actually felt at the time.
Please take this journey with me as I bring to light the horrors in this gripping account of my early life — a life on the run, hungry, terrified and abused — and then continue the journey by reading the other books in this series: Drowning In Memories, Cutter's Revenge and From The Heart: A Collection of Poems and Stories.
For my fiction fans, Trophy Murders mixes truth with fiction for an exciting action-packed crime story about a gang of serial killers as I continue the journey after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life, by the way, I wouldn't wish on any kid!
NOTE: Cutter's Revenge is more fiction than truth, but this book puts a nice ending to many years of tragedy. It is a must read in the series.
Enter my world — if you dare!
WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****
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You Can Make a Difference
WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival took 40 + years to complete. Each time I sat down to write, the memories became overwhelming and I couldn't continue.
For years I tried to write my story as fiction, denying those things happened to me. But, the fiction didn't work. I wasn't telling the truth and truth meant so much to me. I’d lived a life full of nothing but hurt and lies, so how could I tell my story if it was all a lie?
I tried to clean up the language, but that also didn't work. I finally realized I had to keep the words I heard day in and day out, and I had to keep the events as I remembered, partly to keep the truth in my story, but also because there is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse.
Still I struggled to write what had happened to me. Totally frustrated, I decided to change my name. Everyone else had a different name to protect their identity, so why shouldn't I have a different name, too? Of course, I never expected to publish what I was doing. I was writing to find healing and forgiveness for myself. I was sick and tired of living a life full of hate. For years I had so much hate toward the ones who hurt me, and that hate was destroying any chance of me finding happiness.
By changing my name to Sarah I found I was able to pull back and look at what I was writing through Sarah’s eyes. I was then able to face everything that had happened to me. My Sarah was like an imaginary friend guiding me to do what I knew I had to do.
Deep down I always knew I needed to talk about what happened. I needed to admit I was a survivor of child abuse. I needed to find a path toward healing my shame. Yes, shame. I blamed myself for what happened. I felt ashamed and I felt dirty. I felt I was a “bad” kid and that’s why Daddy, his brother and so many more did those things to me.
However, with Sarah’s help, I was able to look at my feelings. I was able to face all the horrible things done to me. But no matter what went down in black and white, I thought I still loved my father. And I hated myself for that! Over the years as more and more memories returned, I began to hate him even more than I hated myself for loving him.
The things he did to me; the things he allowed others to do to me, were unforgivable.
A parent is supposed to protect their children, not hurt them or abuse them. I had to face the fact that my father wasn't one of the good parents. He was cruel. He only cared about himself and his own needs that he forced me to fulfill. Once I faced up to the fact of who my father really was, amazingly, I stopped hating him.
When I finally finished writing about my horrific life, I found what I needed. With the hate gone from my heart my life began to improve so much that I knew I couldn't keep my story to myself any longer. I prayed by sharing what happened to me it would help others survivors still suffering. I hoped it would help save another child from abuse. What happened to me was extreme abuse, but it doesn't take extreme to mess up a kid’s head.
Not long after my book came out, my prayers were answered. I received a message from a reader after she’d finished my first book. I learned all the pain I had to relive during the writing was worth it, because one survivor came forward. She had been helped! She found her path toward healing!
By reading what happened to me, she realized she was not alone and healing was possible for her, too. Today she is living the life she’d been denied for so long. She is happy, maybe for the first time in her life.
Since that first message I have received many more messages thanking me for having the courage to tell my story; thanking me for helping them.
I've also received messages from people who didn't know the damages child abuse could do to a kid until they read my heartbreaking story. These people are now more aware of the children around them. They are aware of the signs that a child is possibly being abused. They can now help prevent child abuse just from their knowledge learned by reading my story.
Hearing these fantastic stories from my readers met what I originally hoped and prayed to achieve by sharing my life, but I have received so much more than I asked for in the beginning. I have received the best gift of all — everyone of these wonderful people who contacted me are now lifelong friends. What more could I ask for?
To learn more about my story, please visit my website. Read the bitter memories series, then tell others about my story. By you helping spread the word, knowledge will change the lives of so many still suffering; so many still being abused.
Please help make my other dream come true. Join me to help prevent other children from having to learn what child abuse feels like. Together we can make a difference in a child’s life.
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HANNAH ANDERSON - Victim or Not? Part One
So far, nothing is adding up in this kidnapping/murder case. So, let's explore some of the "facts" that have been released.
Hannah often went on trips with Jim DiMaggio, just the two of them. They went to Vegas and most recently to Hollywood. He was always picking her up from school.
What parent would let their teenage daughter go off for days with someone old enough to be her father? Does it matter that DiMaggio was a long-time friend of the family? In fact, so close to the family that Hannah and Ethan called him “Uncle” Jim.
Remember, she is only 16 years old!
The day of the alleged kidnapping she was seen riding around town with this 40-year old man. Or, was it the day of the alleged kidnapping?
Original reports stated that she was kidnapped on August 4th, but later we find out DiMaggio picked her up from school on the 3rd.
Hannah has been claiming DiMaggio “creeped her out,” but if this is true, then why did she go on multiple trips with him?
She claims her mother, Christina, and her 8-year old brother, Ethan, were tied up in the garage, DiMaggio had set a timer to explosives, and they left.
When found, Hannah and DiMaggio were in the remote wilderness of Idaho, camping. This is where DiMaggio was shot and killed by police, before he could be questioned. After her “rescue” Hannah claims she didn't know her mother and brother were dead.
How can this be true? She stated she knew the house was set with explosives that would set the house on fire, and that her mother and brother were “tied up” in the garage…but, her brother was not found in the garage.
When police arrived, the house was engulfed in flames. Ethan was found inside the house, burnt so badly DNA had to be used to identify him.
If what Hannah claims is true, how did he get to the house? Did he break free of his bonds? If so, why didn't he help his mother? Was she already dead? Christina Anderson was found inside the garage. Reports said that she had died from blunt force trauma to the head. A bloody crowbar was found near her body.
But, Hannah claims her mother and brother were alive when they left. If this is true, who swung the crowbar, over and over again, bashing in Christina Anderson’s head?
Will we ever know the truth? I sure hope so. Christina and Ethan Anderson deserve justice.
In my next blog on Friday I will post Part Two as we continue exploring more "facts" on Hannah Anderson — Victim or Not?
To learn more of my own personal story of kidnapping and abuse, please visit my website and check out my Bitter Memories series.
HANNAH ANDERSON — Victim or Not? — Part Two
I know everyone reacts differently to trauma, to the death of a loved one, but when my mother died I couldn't manage a smile if my life depended on it. I didn't want to eat, and I sure wasn't a social butterfly.
Any "smile" at my mother's funeral was forced and literally nonexistent as far as a smile goes. I also didn't walk around grinning at other mourners or "skipping" while walking.
FACT: At the funeral of Christina and Ethan Anderson, Hannah was seen smiling, even grinning in a flirtatious manner.
FACT: Hannah was seen at the funeral drinking a Starbucks or wherever she got the drink and "skipping."
Is this the behavior of a girl mourning the death of her mother and brother?
FACT: Hannah made 13 text messages to Jim DiMaggio, claiming she needed to tell him where to pick her up at cheer camp. But, there's question of when these text messages actually took place.
Does it really take THIRTEEN text messages to tell someone to pick you up at the gym, not in front of the school?
FACT: Original story was that DiMaggio picked her up on the 4th from cheer camp, later changed to he picked her up on the 3rd.
FACT: The fire and alleged kidnapping happened on the 4th.
So, where were Christina and Ethan on the 3rd? Were they killed on the 3rd, or held captive?
Fact: Hannah was seen standing next to a girlfriend, the friend was wearing a t-shirt with the picture of Hannah's mother and little brother on the front of the shirt. Both girls were holding their thumb and index finger up as if holding a gun.
FACT: The friend's "gun" was pointing at the head of Ethan, Hannah's 8-year old brother who was found burnt beyond recognition.
Don't forget, Hannah was there when police shot down Jim DiMaggio, a long-time friend of hers and her family! Where's the sorrow, if not for DiMaggio, how about for her mother and brother?
FACT: Before taking down her social sites, Hannah posted numerous pictures of herself, all smiles, acting as if nothing had happened at all.
FACT: A friend of hers posted on a social site that Hannah needed to get home and take care of that "bundle of joy."
This sure sounds like Hannah was pregnant. Who was the father?
Did her mother find out Hannah was pregnant and they had a huge fight?
If they fought, could Hannah have killed her mother in a fit of rage?
FACT: Hannah stated letters she sent to DiMaggio were because he was helping her with her mother when they weren't getting along that well.
FACT: She was angry at her mother, blaming her mother for her father leaving them.
FACT: It's apparent Hannah isn't grieving, but even her father, Brett Anderson, does not act like a man who lost his son and wife in a homicide.
FACT: Brett Anderson hires a publicist and stops talking to the press, holding out for a book deal.
Think about it. A book deal! Where's the anger? Where's the resentment? Where's the tears?
All I've seen is smiles and happiness from this family who lost so much that day, yet show no emotions at all toward that loss. But, nothing stops them from going after money! First a fundraiser, now a book deal.
Is it only the rest of the world who mourns? An innocent little kid, 8-years old was murdered! His mother was murdered!
According to Sheriff Gore, they got their perp. The FBI shot and killed the man who murdered Christina and Ethan Anderson, set his house on fire, and kidnapped Hannah.
But, who set the fire in the garage? It wasn't DiMaggio. He and Hannah were already long gone.
FACT: We know that fire was started after the police and fire department were on the scene of the house in a blaze.
Could the person who set the garage fire actually have been the one who killed Christina and Ethan and set DiMaggio's house on fire?
Could Jim Lee DiMaggio have been innocent of murder and arson?
Could Jim Lee DiMaggio have been innocent of kidnapping Hannah, a girl who called him "Uncle Jim" most of her life and spent many hours alone with this man?
FACT: DiMaggio's sister, Lora, stated that "Hannah is trouble."
Could Hannah have caused the death of an innocent man, and to keep herself out of trouble — "We're all in trouble now" — came up with the kidnapping story?
The next blog on Monday continues part three in my search for the truth.
To learn more of my own personal story of kidnapping and abuse, please visit my website and check out my Bitter Memories series.
http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen
