When taken from my bed, then being told we were going on a trip, I was so excited. But, as he carried me out to the car—that he'd left running—I began to get scared, but I didn't know why. I was with my Daddy, after all. And Daddy wouldn't do anything to hurt me...would he?

As he slowly drove away from the house I felt something was wrong. It wasn't until he neared the highway and told me to lie down and go back to sleep that I remembered my doll Judy. He'd picked me up so quickly that I'd left Judy, my best friend in the whole world, on my bed. I cried for him to go back to the house. I begged him to go back for Judy but Daddy only yelled and again told me to lie down and go to sleep.

But how could I sleep without Judy? I'd never been without her since my second birthday when Daddy had given her to me.

I continued to cry and begged him again to go back but he became so furious. With fire in his eyes he turned around in the car seat and told me to shut up about the damn doll.

When I couldn't stop crying he threatened me, saying if he had to pull the car over to the side of the road he would give me something to cry about.

It was then that I knew something else was wrong. Terribly wrong. Daddy had never hit me or yelled at me before. He was acting so mean and I truly believed I would be very sorry if he stopped the car.

I also thought, by the way he was acting, he didn't love me anymore. But how could that be? He was taking me on a trip, wasn't he?

As night turned to day and back to night again I began to wonder if I'd ever see my home again, my grandparents, or even my mother.

I felt so lost. So scared. So alone. What would I do if I lost Daddy? I had to stop making him mad at me! I worshiped Daddy. It was my fault he got mad and yelled at me. I thought: All I have to do is be a good girl and everything will be okay.

But everything wasn't okay. Nothing would ever be okay again...I didn't know how my life was going to change—forever...

You can read my full story of abduction, fear, abuse, and survival in Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival.

I am a true crime, memoir, and crime fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming. Visit my website for all my books with links to order in various formats.

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